i am blessed with my marriage life!
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assalamualaikum.. :)
long time no see guys! it's been a year i guess?
it was 2016 when i wrote my last post. and now it's already 2018!!! maigoshhhhh... how time flies!
so now, i'm gonna tell you guys what was happening when i wasn't around.
after graduated my Diploma, I took a special leave from my studies to get some rest. People might say it is because I want to get married or what not but that is totally wrong. Well, you know, when it comes to people, they just want to judge you. They don't have any intention to get to you. To understand you. That is basically what people do. Being a judge!
So now, lets move onto the next story. After I took a leave, I get married!!!!
It was on 4th February 2017. Well, its actually happen 6 month after i took my special leave, so, the reasoning that people made was totally wrong!
So, here's my simple wedding photo. It actually a very simple reception because that was what I always wanted to do!
Finally Hanana is a wife to somebody! hah!
Unfortunately, #thekimsisters wasn't there because of some reasons. (Yelahhh kan memasing duduk jauh!). To be honest, I was quite disappointed because I thought they could make it since we have talked about this many times and they were the first to know that I'm getting married, but why bother! It's my Big Day by the way! So why should I be thinking negatively. Just enjoy the day!!
Instead of #thekimsisters, these special ladies were there on my wedding day! Although I was dreaming all of them in one picture, but yeah, just enjoy Hanana. Enjoy!!
They were there on my Malam Berinai too! The theme was to be 'gadis melayu terakhir' by wearing baju kurung Kedah. Konon! I was the most unattractive girl over there, even though I was the bride! hahahaha. LOL! But really, I'm glad that they were there with me. To cherish the moment together! Thank you so much guys!! For making my 'Big Day' so special and memorial!
So, after getting married, a month afterward, I continue my studies. My one and only vision, to finish my degree and fly high!
Done my 4th semester, and I thought i could finish my studies sooner but I failed on one of my subject! How sad is that!!!! My dream is getting far away from me. I cried for days. I got depressed. Like seriously depressed. I was thinking not to continue living but thank God my husband was there for me. Giving me motivation to keep moving on. But! My life chart was even dropping drastically when I miscarriage on my first pregnancy two weeks after I got my examination result. That's making me wanted to stop living even more!
However, I actually could overcome that and now I'm on my 5th semester break. ngeheeee. And still, I miscarriage again on my second pregnancy. That was the time that I really wanted to give up . I just can't do this anymore. I'm so tired! My life was very sad!(this thought was when I start bleeding!)
Soon after I miscarriage, I recover myself's courage! I motivated my own self! To keep moving. To finish my studies successfully! To fly high! As high as what I've dream of!
So now, I'm hoping for a better life. May Allah ease everything for me. Amiin.
So girls out there, watch out for these heart breakers! kah!
Keep yourself motivated guys. Only then you'll have the courage to move forward. Keep the positive vibes so you can walk away from your bad past. Keep this in mind 'You are stronger than what you think!'. Make people happy with your present. One more thing, when you feeling down and want to give up, surround yourself with good people that appreciate your present and can keep you motivated. You know, sometimes you need to give yourself a break, so yeah, just enjoy living and make a good memories so that you can give inspirations to other people. :)
Adios.
xoxo, aku gadis BIASA