Assalamualaikum.
Hanana is having a war in her head right now.
Mahu sambung pelajaran atau tidak?
Persoalannya mengapakah tidak mahu sambung? Tidak terasa seperti membazir masa kah?
For me, time is not a big matter in this problem. The truth is, Hanana just cant continue being a dead body, or alien, or a manequin that walk around the bush. 😆
And most of all, this problem is way to faaaaaarr from being 'minah gatal yang tak sabar nak kahwin'.
That is not the reason!
I repeat, marriage has nothing to do with my study. Its two different things with two different futures. I know it very well.
The reason is, because i dont feel happy being there. I just dont want to be there alone!
Yes, people often say that being happy is not only with your bestfriend. You just have to set in mind, that 'anything happen, nothing can vanish my happiness.'
Hello!!
Everybody can say anything they want including me! And I say, I dont feel happy being alone! Being alienated by other people. I cant blend with everybody easily. It takes time and no one give me that time for being blended.
All i have in mind is wanna give up. I cant dont this anymore. This is not me! I lost myself for the whole semester!
That shows how sad, how bad my condition is.
I dont want to do this anymore. Please...
